My virginity?

we broke up. he said that we had ntg in common but we lasted for a year plus. i juz dun get it. i always loved him. i treated him lyk my world. i even cooked for him (but i was very bad at it ,but i stil did it) i wasted my virginity on him. n after that i regretted. i tried to get over him but i couldnt ,i tried to get him back but he said i as obbesed. he hurt he bad but i miz the times we had 2gather. and everyting i do reminds me of him. but there's 7 guys hu confessed to me lately. but out of 7 i lyked 1 guy (J) cuz he treated me lyk how i treated my ex. i lyk the way he treats me but i dun love him, n he says i'll learn to love him wen i b hiz girl.but i tried but i still love my ex. over the days. i dunno if i should still love him or my ex? i juz mis my ex nowadays and the times we spend together. my birthday wish was to get my ex back. but all my friends say that (J) is great and he treats me lyk im hiz world. but i mis my ex. what should i do ? i been crying alot lately.